Today my son would be celebrating 3 years old. I cannot believe it has been 3 years. 3 years is a long time to hold on to only memories. It has been a long time since I saw his face. A long time since I held him close. A long time since I smelled his sweetness. A long time since I ran my fingers through his brown hair. But what do you think 3 years in heaven is like? I bet to Noah, it was only yesterday when he was held close to his mommy. Only yesterday when his daddy sang to him. Only yesterday when his big sister proudly held him for the first time. And only yesterday when his family stood at his bedside radiating love towards him. There is so much I feel that is undone here on Earth. Many things that my human-mind thinks it needs to experience before it is my time to leave. But it is times like this, that I would go running to the gates to see my Noah again. Leave all of this behind, pick up my son and hold him. Honestly, my fear is that I won’t get that. I don’t know what heaven or the new heaven or the new earth will be like. Will Noah be the infant that I remember? Will I be his mother? Or perhaps we just have a connection to each other, but we are unsure what it is. I believe that I will see him again, but I don’t like that I don’t know what form that will be in. I trust that God will fulfill every desire I have for our reunion when that time comes.
In the meantime, Noah, we will talk about you, we will touch your picture, we will give you kisses, we will tell complete strangers about you, we will wish you good days in heaven, we will tell your new siblings about you, and we will remember.
I’ve been thinking a lot about you guys this weekend. You guys have done an excellent job of telling us that didn’t have the privilege of meeting Noah all about him and your story so that we would have the joy of knowing him through you. I believe that however your reunion with Noah will play out, it will be sweet, joyful, and full of God’s blessing.
we love you guys!!
I’ve been thinking about ya’ll this week. I have always been blessed by your faith and the way you tell Noah’s story and the love you have for him. I don’t know just what Heaven will be like, but I do know that you won’t be disappointed. Not even a little. Love you guys!
The grace and peace you demonstrated three years ago still shines brightly today… and I know it is by your faith in Him that you are so strong. God Bless you guys. We love you…
Hello Julie, my name is Peggy Whaley. I came across your page and just wanted to tell you I think it is absolutely wonderful. I have actually been reading it this past year. I live in california. I have three children, Chris (18 yrs), Ashley (13 yrs) and Noah (9yrs). My husband Glenn died in March of 2002. I come to your page often and read of how your family is doing and it really strengthens me. I just wanted you to know that and know my thoughts and prayers are with you & your family. God bless.
We have never met. I am sure you have stumbled upon blogs and been touched. I am a friend of Blair. I was reading his blog and somehow clicked on something that brought me to yours. I think it is a “God” thing that this happened. I have a good friend who has been through something very similar to you. Your words sound so much like her words. She is the best example of a true Christian that I have come across. I don’t know the details of Noah, but it sounds similar to my friend. If you ever want someone to connect with, someone who feels similar to you… who has those thoughts only you know and don’t know how to express them….please let me know. I know my friend would benefit from your friendship too. Thank you for being so honest about your feelings and sharing them with the world on this blog. You are a strength for others and don’t even know the lives you have touched. I will be praying for you, your husband, and your girls. God Bless you.
Stacey