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I cannot believe this little girl is my baby…my last baby. Today, she is 4 months old. I see newborns and I think to myself that my baby is not like that anymore. She doesn’t curl up in my neck when I lay on the couch. Instead she constantly raises her head and bumps me in the lip. She doesn’t need me to hold her pacifier while she falls asleep. Instead she can soothe herself with her own thumb. She doesn’t need the professional swaddle job that only I can do. Instead I can just lay her down and she is good. She doesn’t need me to protect her from the actions of her big sisters. Instead she loves when they interact with her.<\/p>\n

Of course all of these things are great. But they mean that she is only one step further from being my little baby. Why do they grow up so fast? And why did I get so frustrated in those moments that I now miss? Why can’t I just slow down and truly enjoy this time? Because I know in a short while I will look up and my girls will be all grown. It makes me just a bit sad to think of that day. So for now, we will play on the floor. We will smile and coo at each other. I will watch as you discover your hands, your tongue and your feet. I will help you learn to sit so you can see the world in a whole new view. I will enjoy those moments of what seem like endless feedings, because soon enough you will not need me for that anymore either. Lord, slow me down to enjoy this time of motherhood. Give me patience and peace knowing I am doing for my girls what no one else can do. And I am being exactly what you created me to be right now.<\/p>\n

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